I figured since I keep de-railing threads with my bullshit, I'll keep it all in here and ask to have my introduction page locked. I'll answer whatever you guys throw at me, as long as it has nothing to do with my previous site or my son. The rest is fair game
What was your upbringing like? Of course, you may be as vague or as detailed as you wish. What were your parents like, how was early life for you, major events, high school, etc.
No, no I don't think so My upbringing was not fantastic but it wasn't the worst out there. I had an excellent mom but my home life was kind of ruined early on by other factors, none of which were her fault nor do I blame her. My early life is something I don't speak about. Later in life I made a lot of bad choices but I feel like they led to me being a more well-rounded person. I had some problems with addiction in my adolescent and early teen years then I got clean, moved out of the country, came back and started fucking up again. I was rebellious but in different ways than most teenagers. I was expelled from all but one high school in my city but managed to graduate at 17 after starting college at 15. I received a full scholarship upon graduating. I found myself in a three year relationship that resulted in me having my son when I was 18. I don't know what to talk about so you can be more specific with questions if you want.
Thanks for doing this by the way. You don't hve to answer anything you don't want to. How did you start college at 15, with all your problems? What did you study? What are your hobbies? What do you do in your spare time? Do you have much spare time? What are your short term and long term life goals? Where do you see yourself in 10 years?
It's okay, I'm pretty open as long as it doesn't compromise my real life. Because the stubborn attitude that fueled my rebellion also fueled my drive to stop it when I felt like it. I was accepted into a highly reputable technical college initially majoring in nuclear medicine. When I returned to college after graduation, I switched majors and now have several degrees/certifications in Law Enforcement and Drug and Alcohol counseling. I worked in several facets of the justice system. Though I can't say it was for the most reputable of reasons. I am an introvert. I do a lot of things at home, alone. Reading, art stuff, rebuilding computers, gaming, creating programs. I live in a rural area when I'm not in Chicago, though. So I do a lot of outdoorsie stuff as well. Communists tend to like five year plans I don't know, honestly. I take life day by day.
Babe, you've seen all my drawings, creeper. I don't wanna show any here :/ I'll show Lenin and Hitler I guess, if I can find any pictures of them.
I was born a Jew but lived most of my life as an Atheist. I always had doubts, though. In recent years I've become much, much more serious about my faith and heritage. I do believe it but I'm not a mindless idiot. I have a spiritual relationship with G-d and a profound attachment to Israel but I study a lot about Judaism and do not accept everything for what it may seem to be simply because I'm told that. I am a fan of an Alexandrian philosopher named Philo Judaeus. I look at religion in a way different than most, especially than most Jews. But I do accept that G-d is very real. I've been dead twice, officially. One time there was nothing, the other was something entirely different. I was gone for four minutes. Before that. my spirituality was fleeting but now I am cemented in the fact that there is, indeed, something far greater than this world. I do love G-d and I will always remain humbled before him. My religion is not what makes me. I'm intelligent and realize the flaws, not a mindless sheep. Do not mistake my faith for ignorance or naivety. As for the Orthodox conversion, I'll answer that if someone asks it. It's complicated.
How do you know that God exists? Even if God exists, how are you certain that God is anything like what a bunch of desert nomads from several thousand years say he's like? Do you seriously think you've experienced the afterlife?
So you've graduated with some degrees at quite a young age. You said you've "worked" in the justice system. It begs the question: What exactly are you doing right now? What was it like doing the stuff you did (by that I mean college and in justice) as a young and attractive woman? What I mean is, I assume you had quite a unique experience and was treated differently than most. In what ways? Any interesting stories? What is your natural hair colour?
It's something you just know. And it's not wrong if you don't believe, I do and it's simple as that. I have a private and personal relationship with G-d. I believe every person's interpretation of their deity is based somewhat on their ego. I know I have. I was clinically dead. It was not a hallucination, it was not a dream. My brain was dead. So unless it's a chemical reaction everyone experiences, then I am nearly certain with the fact that I have seen enough to know my faith is not futile. Drawings on the way, guys.
Here are three of my quicker, shittier drawings. They're all I have on my new computer right now. Sorry.
I hope someone replies so I don't triple post. This was just a long-ass response. Right now I'm taking time away. I'm a tattoo artist and I sell my art for money. I make some money through other avenues but it's nothing relevant or interesting. It was alright mostly. I was definitely treated in an odd way but it's to be expected in a man's field. I no longer want to work in any facet of law enforcement or the prosecutorial system because of my political standing but it was really fun while I was doing it. And now I can get away with almost anything Reddish blonde. I'll post a picture eventually.
That's really stupid. The existence of a deity is a binary function. There can be only one answer either way, and it's a pretty important question. Come to what conclusion you like, but "It's just something you know" dishonors the thousands-year old labor of both the theologists who have worked to establish the existence of the divine, and the atheists who refute them. Have some conviction. Do you really think an omnipotent, omniscient, eternal deity cares about whether or not you spell his name appropriately? No shit, since everyone's interpretation of everything is based somewhat on their ego. What would you say is more likely: a person with severe physical trauma (enough to simulate brain death, at that) has a hallucination on the brink of death, or they enter the afterlife for a few moments, only to be pulled back down to earth by medical resuscitation? One of those is positively loony, the other is an observed, documented occurrence.
Kali, I really don't care what you think or feel about myself or my religion. It's kind of silly to take a stance against it but then support it in your next post, making me the villain in both. I spell G-d that way because it's how I was taught and it's the proper way to write it. If it bothers you, then I apologize. If you were such a proponent of freedom of expression I find it somewhat contradictory that a hyphen used to make myself right within the confines of my faith would insult you or cause you to tell me to do something differently. Religion is a private experience for me. I have no need to justify it either way. My experience was caused at the hands of doctors, not trauma, and I have no explanation for what happened. I know what I saw and felt, you don't. I could explain it but there's no point. It was my moment of validation, why would I share that with someone who solely means to belittle or dissect it.
